Small Town Girl

sometimes i wish,
to go back and mend some things
sometimes i wish,
to just go back and relive
sometimes i wish,
to fast forward the present
sometimes i wish,
to just pause the present
sometimes i wish,
people around me to change
sometimes i wish,
myself to change
sometimes i wish,
to run as fast as i can
sometimes i wish,
to just sit back and relax
sometimes i wish,
that all my wishes come true
sometimes i marvel,
why do i have so many wishes?
sometimes i wish this
sometimes that
i know i shouldn't
but i do!

with my arms stretched
& full of confidence

with my breaths deep
& full of noise

with my eyes closed
& a vision beyond infinity

with my feet still
& a few inches above the world

i used to fly.
fly, what i did.

now.

with my arms stretched
& an emptiness in my heart

with my breaths deep
& full of a deafening silence

with my eyes closed
& an infinite darkness

with my feet still
& nowhere in this world

i cry.
cry, is what i do.