Small Town Girl

For the want of enthusiasm / inspiration to write something original, here's something i read, and love :)

Being a twenty-something...........

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at what ur studyin or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the BOTTOM and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone! but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you are scared just to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. For all the twenty-something people reading this, maybe it will help you feel like you aren't alone in ur state of confusion...

Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change. whats life without a few risks? keep playing the game ! Just take care and be good .. & be Honest to yourself.

If u want happiness for an hour, take a NAP.

If you want happiness for a day, go for a PICNIC.

If you want happiness for a week, go on a VACATION.

If you want happiness for a month, get MARRIED.

If you want happiness for a year, inherit WEALTH.

If you want happiness for a lifetime, learn to LOVE WHAT YOU DO.

\m/ :))

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term exam. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well...
Here is the "Bonus Question" on the exam: "Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?"
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:
First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.
As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.
Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added. This gives two possibilities:
1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.
So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa (a girlfriend of mine during my Freshman year) that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you", and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.
The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

THIS STUDENT RECEIVED THE ONLY "A."

The colors are achanging
the earth is aglow,

Everything was a luscious green,
not such a long time ago.

Now it’s yellow, scarlet, burgundy, ochre,
We aren’t very far from the white of snow.

The surface air has cooled off,
The heat of the earth seems to blow,

Through the tree trunks and into the leaves,
I can almost see it flow.

No more walking bare foot on grass
and no more skin show,

It’s time to cuddle up in blankets,
The winter is here saying hello.

There's a crying child
behind this smiling girl
who is in tears for very long

Masking her feelings
from this blind world
for nobody cares actually (except a few.. i hope)

Life is a profit-loss statement
hanging between good and bad
here you're liable for your assets

Expectations are such a bitchy thing
they leave you nowhere but to regret
yet we keep on expecting

In this vicious circle of pain and sorrow
we find temporary happiness
and then go on with our miseries

Is there a solution to life?
Death perhaps?
I guess.. not!
Then?
Who knows?

sometimes i wish,
to go back and mend some things
sometimes i wish,
to just go back and relive
sometimes i wish,
to fast forward the present
sometimes i wish,
to just pause the present
sometimes i wish,
people around me to change
sometimes i wish,
myself to change
sometimes i wish,
to run as fast as i can
sometimes i wish,
to just sit back and relax
sometimes i wish,
that all my wishes come true
sometimes i marvel,
why do i have so many wishes?
sometimes i wish this
sometimes that
i know i shouldn't
but i do!

with my arms stretched
& full of confidence

with my breaths deep
& full of noise

with my eyes closed
& a vision beyond infinity

with my feet still
& a few inches above the world

i used to fly.
fly, what i did.

now.

with my arms stretched
& an emptiness in my heart

with my breaths deep
& full of a deafening silence

with my eyes closed
& an infinite darkness

with my feet still
& nowhere in this world

i cry.
cry, is what i do.